Saturday, May 21, 2005
why do i even exist in this fucking world. argh.i need to do some serious thinking. i really do. whats with all the people ard me. i hate everyone. u all are just liars. all liars.u pretend u were some fucking close fren. you tried to be there whenever i needed someone. notice. u TRIED.but no. u were just faking it all thru out. i dont think i am dumb and i hope u didnt think that way. is it jealousy or just purely anger. i dont know. i thought i let go? so jealousy is out. i dont know. i am f-ing confused. after a second thought, i realized i dont really have someone to count on. i dont. if i were to call someone in the middle of the night to share my sorrows, no one would bother. no one would. i seriously dont know what's wrong with me. my mood is just bad. very bad. and i vent it on everyone. i am sorry guys but i just couldnt control. whats going on with me. i need to know mann. or i will really meet up at 4.30. i will. i promise.
for your love ;
10:14 PM;
